This is was the lesson of the day. I now need to make it last a lifetime.
I got called out today. As some of you know from my past posts I have started taking a yoga class. It’s part yoga, part mediation and part hurting myself. There is one particular pose that is done at every class.
I cannot do it. I do not have the core strength. I physically just don’t. I was okay with that. Until today.
It turns out I really don’t have the core strength. Only it’s not the core of my abdominal muscles that’s the problem.
I met with the instructor before class. She asked how I’m doing with the class so far. I told her I am really getting a lot out of it, but I can’t do that one pose so I’ll just do something else at that time. Then she blew me away. Oh crap, I opened up a can of worms.
No, she said. You have to focus, you have to push past the pain. Pain is ok, ( really? I thought). Bring your mind down to your core and your energy will follow.
This is where I would normally run for the nearest exit. I am not the “energy” sort. Oh, and I’m not so fond of pain either.
She continued. Yoga teaches you not only how to breathe, or stretch. It will give you the ability to persevere. You can feel uncomfortable, even pain, and then just continue anyway. Don’t avoid it. And now for the “aha” moment.
If you are always avoiding what makes you uncomfortable then you’re not ever resolving it.
She means in life, not yoga. She somehow understood that I run from any problems. I have gotten really good at avoidance. I am beginning to excel at taking hurt and pain and washing them down with chocolate and peanut butter.
Just count to ten when it hurts, she said. You can stand anything for ten seconds. Then count another ten and bring your mind to where it hurts. You can acknowledge the discomfort. Live with it for another ten. You’ve survived. Another ten, you’ve excelled.
I did it! I held the pose longer than I ever did before. Not even close to as long as the others in my class by I’m still proud of myself. I will hold it longer tomorrow.
I am strong,